just wild at heart

ain't nothing to be done but accept who i is.  

it's over, all this things i thought were for sure for a while now and there's only an emptiness where all that fun daydreamy stuff used to be.  the weird thing is how freeing that emptiness is.  nothing's holding me back now.  as soon as i get over these mean reds, i'll feel wild again, untamed, the way i was meant to feel.  since always and forever.  but for now, i let the emptiness creep in and i try embrace it's freedom.  nothing's for sure.  but i'm not scared to change into what's next.  i had a cop tell me once while he was shining his flashlight in my face handing me a ticket as tears welled in my eyes, "life is good."  it didn't help at the time, but nothing has ever been so profound as those words when times get rough.

weird, life happens in a series of moments, and one never knows what moment can affect some one forever.  kinda neat, really.  moving on!

i just got caught up on suicide squad.  love, love harley in this!  wish she didn't look like a clown hooker though.  decent story line, but love the way they write her.  i'm not sure what to read next.  if i can find #2 of batgirl, then that.  doom patrol is looking pretty interesting, so that might be next on the agenda.  but i really need to sit my ass down and finish the wild life of sailor and lula.  i miss reading.  i don't do nearly enough of it, to be honest.

was watching bonnie & clyde the other day for the first time.  i liked it, but it was a little weird how they made clyde disinterested in sex or impotent or something.  what kind of tragic love story is that?  i loved the way they dressed faye though.  even though it was very 60's it had a smooth 20's vibe and she screamed fashion icon to me.  i also saw what the big deal with warren beatty was all about.  god, was that man fine back in the day.  my heart still belongs to gregory peck.  this reminds me, i still need to watch rebel without a cause...

in other prospectively exciting, yet not getting my hopes up news, there is a new release date for doctor who's eternity clock - may the 23rd...or so they say.  i've heard this one before, bbc, don't let me down again.  again, again, i mean.

in the mean time i've been checking out the new assassin's creed 3 which looks awesome!  i've never played an assassin's creed game (always wanted to, just never had the time), but this one looks like a must.  now that means playing catch up.  and cleaning my room so i can see my t.v.  OH!  and i'm getting a couch so i don't have to live on my bed as much!  thanks mom!

oh, so how am i the only one who didn't know about this??  GOTHAM CITY IMPOSTERS?!  where i get to dress up as superheroes without being said super hero?!  it looks amazing!  i can't wait to get my sticky little hands on it.  the only prob is i figure it's an mmo or at least has other players interaction, which means a wifi connection, which, well i do have one, but it's oh-so slow.  just thinking about the lag makes me sad.  but how ultimately cool does it look??

and there's my girls, batgirl and harley<3

5.17 comic to-do list.

the doom patrol

(grant morrison edition)

hopeless savages

tanpopo

wasteland

love struck

adventure time!!

...and madman

i've fallen behind.  i keep getting sidetracked with 80's dystopian movies and barry gibbon's romances.  what a sick, strange world this is. 

i will feel accomplished today if i finish wild at heart, hhgtg, perdita durango, and bonnie and clyde.  probably ain't gonna happen, though...

5.9 update

CURRENTLY


just finished reading the killing joke

currently working on promethea

started reading wild at heart

current crush is captain nemo<3

my favorite is crawling into bed after a shower and falling asleep to dr. no

what's your update?

BATMAN x WONDERWOMAN

i'm kinda in love with this pairing, and i'm not sure why. i never really cared for wonder woman, but that started to change when i saw this -

it's the cover to wonder woman - hiketeia. all i can say is, git it, gurl. since then i've been totally obsessed with them. <3 it.

quitting is easy, i've done it lots of times.

today i quit smoking. or did i just run out of cigarettes?

as i've been sick for the past week and a half i haven't had too much a craving for em, so i figure now's as good a time as any. the thing i liked about smoking was that i could always pick it up or leave it without much effort. but now it's gotten harder to leave it in what i'm pretty sure they refer to as addiction. and, well, i realized i have been smoking (on and off) since i was 16, which is gonna be 10 years soon, and i think 10 years makes me an official smoker. ewww.

smoking also is not a great way to stay in shape, nor is microwaveable pizzas, which i've become all too friendly as of late. i've gotten kinda lazy with yoga and want to start running since a friend told me about zombies, run! a really nifty app that narrates an apocalyptic zombie scenario in between your playlists.

this past week i've been a complete lazy bum. mostly i caught up on the new 52 i've been reading. batwoman (of course!), wonder woman, and the suicide squad with my girl harley quinn. oh harley, what have they done to you?

it seems a really cruel joke to make my harley no more than a harlot. it's not that i don't like the look, cause i do, it's just not harley. harley was the coolest because her appeal wasn't sexual. she didn't need it. she did it all on her own by being bat-shit insane. all covered literally head to toe and still she was everyone's favorite. i will say they have written her well, and thus far i'm actually liking suicide squad in it's own right. but i can't help but feel they're bastardizing a great character for a cheap thrill of cleavage in a tube top.

i still need to read batgirl. i'm gonna check out justice league dark, too.

while in bed being all lazy and whatnot, i watched the seven faces of dr. lao, since it was one of ray's stop motion flicks. eh, really boring. there was barely any stop-motion, and the plot made no sense. i left missing those 2 hours of my life that could have been used watching dateline. le sigh. i was also able to watch one off my list of to-dos, escape from new york. it was alright, i prefer mad max, but escape NY did bring a certain level of class i was not expecting...

muthafreakin' chandelier car!!

also watched batman - gotham knight. or at least started it. the animation is amazing. simple amazing!

mr. williams and batwoman's nipples

so i checked my email when i got home and saw i received a lovely email from jh williams in reply to an email i sent him a coupla days back. mr. williams is one of the very talented hands behind batwoman, which i'm a huge fan of.

while it is my general rule not to go out of my way to contact any persons of interest as i think it's a waste of time and i have better things to do. okay, i don't really, but i refuse to be comic book guy.

now this day i was warm with some hair of the dog and particularly infatuated with batwoman: elegy that i just finished and i had to tell someone. anyone. i'll tell jh himself, goddammit. so breaking all my rules, i wrote my first, uh...what you could call "fan mail" i guess? wait, no, i take that back, i did write sailor moon's naoko takeuchi in japan in the 6th grade. i did not get a response. anyway, back to the present. so i pretty much went all fan girl on him, which is pretty accurate because his work is far and away some of the best i've ever seen, definitely from dc. i love batwoman, who she is, who she isn't, that we finally have a super hero for us pasty girls to look up to. but i'd be lying if i said it was perfect.

it's the nipples.

don't get me wrong, i love the female form and there is def a time and a place for one to enjoy it's charms. i just don't think crime fighting is one of them. i don't know, it just takes me back to p.e. class. i don't expect you to understand if you're a dude, but let's just say the ladies hurt without support while running. and i told jh that.

and to my surprise he wrote me back! and he was so nice, too. he took the feedback very well and explained it was an aesthetic choice, for a kinda retro look. now not only do i love batwoman the comic, i can say the guy behind it is pretty choice, too. check out his work, it speaks for itself. artists with crazy talent like that and true appreciation of the fans need to be supported!

comic to-do list

okay. another series down, but still, there's never enough time to dedicate to pretty pictures and speech-bubbled words. le sigh. so i'm slowwwwwly going through my list here -

transmetropolitan - i was reading this a little bit before christmas, then i think i just started reading something else. that's just how it goes with me.

kabuki: the alchemy

love & rockets - i read maggie the mechanic a while back.

the watchmen - i know, i know, i have no excuse. *hangs head in shame*

sailor moon - been meaning to get around to reading all 18 volumes. and 200 episodes, for that matter, but that's for another day.

sweet tooth

the walking dead - another one i started and then i don't know what happened.

last, but certainly not least - tank girl

bat the girl.

a lot of the stuff my dreams are made of is just nonsense and sugar rush.

stuff like a steampunk tardis, a crazy mix of adventure time with doctor who, or if i was to dream big, like REALLY big, a doctor who lego video game...but as i said, all these things are nonsense in the most nonsensical form of the word, but some dreams are possible if you wish really hard on a star. an all-star, that is.

and you get sum MUTHAFREAKIN' BATGIRL shoes!

so, of course i immediately fell desperately and hopelessly in love with them. mama owed me a pair of belated christmas shoes and will be paying for her crime with these babies. sadly, journey's was out of stock of their crazy huge sizes that my feet require, sos i have to wait a coupla days :( but my marme, never wanting to disappoint and with my step-father's charge card in hand bought me the black-on-black high tops i've been eyeing for some time now. nice. very, very nice. i wonder if she ordered the toms that were my original choice for my belated shoes...

been reading v for vendetta. it's mind-blowing good. i'm wondering why i dropped it the first time i read it. it makes me think of beth with all the anarchy (in the u.k.!) and yelling at statues. not that she yells at statues, but i'm not sure she ever came across one that needed yelling at. so it's hard to say. for the most part that's how i'm spending my leisure time. i've been on a real comic book kick lately, and i'm sure as hell enjoying it. at some point life gets heavy and the good ol' boys sing their farewell blues and you kinda forget who you are. and you stop reading comic books. not cause you gots anything better to do, you just stop. and now i'm reading ghostworld and that yellow bastard remembering what it's like to sit outside in the damp heat of virginia with a hard, stiff drink watching the smoke from my clove dance in the stagnate, heavy air and thinking about the way things used to was back when billie sang it.